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Fri, 05 Jun 2009 01:50:22 GMT

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I can't get away from that word (: Click on the above link to go to my new blog! I'm getting very tired of the ugly ads on this page. Instead of being a reason for people to upgrade to premium, it's an encouragement for people to switch away from Xanga! But here's to 2.5 years of using thekaleidoscope.xanga.com since 17th Dec 2006 - that's a really long time!

It's time for a change.

Happy Birthday Fellow GS! (:

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 03:21:09 GMT

HELLO HERN HERN! You're seventeen today :D Haha it's been awesome spending so much time with you in school - dance, in class, on the bridge for announcements, council meetings, etc etc! Keep having fun and believing in what you do (: LOVE YOU.

I got locked out yesterday because I left my keys at home ): So Yunyi and I were stranded outside at the ah pek chess table downstairs! I discovered it's actually quite a conducive place to study - windy, bright, and away from distractions such as this computer and the fridge full of snacks. Managed to finish the differentiation revision (apart from a few annoying questions I got stuck at).

That morning I did my 2.4km run! BY MYSELF ): Because Hern had a stomachache and was messaging me from the Anchorpoint toilet. My timing was 14.02! I got an A though 14.01 is the legal A mark. I would totally fwc if I were to get a B because of that ONE SECOND. Not bad considering I haven't been exercising properly ever since the trial cross-country run which was eons ago. Yay running makes me feel fit (: I should do it more often. (I'm quite surprised I don't have any body aches today! Usually I'd have to roll off the bed the day after vigorous exercise cause I can't sit up.)

Met Yunyi at Cine to watch "Dance, Subaru!" together (: I loved loved loved the show! Especially the adorable kids and the dances. I thought the part with DBSK was cool, but quite forced in a way. Like Liz Park and Subaru had to specially go somewhere else to talk (where DBSK was performing) when the original place was just fine for talking. Haha but anyway the point is, dance is one of the most awesome thing in the world. Well at least to me in my world (:

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I thought things couldn't get any worse. Guess I was wrong.

I'm sorry.

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 14:47:58 GMT

Sometimes it's sad when people doubt that word. I'm not referring to that incident per se, but just because I'm saying it now to you. And meaning it with all sincerity.

It hurts when I find I haven't been doing all that I can to be there for you. And it's not only because you had to tell me, but that I'm afraid of all this turning into the same deva ju situation you faced a year ago. The very same one I promised I wouldn't let anyone I love face, ever. But what if it's happening right now? Without me knowing, without me being able to do anything? And if one of the things I hate most is breaking my promises, why am I doing it now?

And so this is to my dearest friend whom I haven't been able to be there for, I'm sorry! You know who you are (: And I hope you're not going to feel apprehensive when you hear this word, but I promise to be in that tunnel with you whenever you need me, impulse visits when the telepathy bell rings, online/sms conversations that make us smile to the luminous screens, and many more! Till we grow old and have children who will play together and be the best of friends - just like us! So believe me when I say I'm not doing this just because I feel I should. It's what I want to do for a bestie like you (: To be that awesome friend that you've been to me, and even better!

I miss you to the stars and back. And I can't wait for Saturday's Restless <3

Okay. My mum just wrote a royal decree on hotel paper and will be blue-tacking it to the wall in front of me:
"With immediate effect, use of computer after 11.00pm onwards will be charged at the following rates:
1st half hour - $1.00
Every subsequent half hour - $0.50
This imposition is deemed necessary to curb the high rising electrical costs which is eating into the budget. Please plan your time/usage wisely and thank you for your understanding. By the way, payment is on cash terms and immediately payable after each usage. For special need basis related to school work, special permit may be applied and granted case-by-case basis.
Signed, Management of the House (1/6/09)
PS: For every good results scored for test or exams, refund based on aggregate is feasible.
A1/2 - $10
B3/4 - $7
C5/6 - $3
This is only valid from 1 July until mid Nov 09."

Haha and I've already paid my first fine. (About to pay my second soon, omg.)

Had our awesome clean up today at the council room! Managed to finish quite a lot (: Our room's going to be the coolest ever in its 35 years of existence! (Well excluding all the times that HC moved to Woodlands and SP.) Jiayou 36th!

Okay I just had a highly amusing MSN conversation! Yenjin would know why (:
Speaking of funny online conversations:

zelei<35! MINUS 4 says:
ahahhaha omgg
i wanna turn back time
sandy fwc (: says:
hahaha (: so do i!
actually i just wanna FREEZE time
everythings moving too fast and i don't like it ):
zelei<35! MINUS 4 says:
HAHA yeahh thats for you
you should freeze time
i should turn back time
my one very slow moving now
hahaha
sandy fwc (: says:
hahaha if you turn it back and if i freeze then we'll all be gses forever HAHA
zelei<35! MINUS 4 says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
OMG
YOU
JUST
MADE
ME
LAUGH

Haha love you! And I loved the bus ride home that day, we should bus together more often (:

My holiday resolutions: STUDY HARD (do well for blocks), keep fit, have fun, catch up with friends and family. Retail therapy sounds super tempting with GSS omg, but come on, FOCUS.

Allergies

Sat, 30 May 2009 15:14:19 GMT

I've been collating the councillors' personal particulars on Excel, and under the "Allergies" column for my name, I was so tempted to add in "tests and exams" as one of them. Had Math assignment on Friday and my nose is being annoying again. Killing whole forests at the rate I'm going with the tissue paper!

Okay, so June holidays are here. So cheer, no sigh, just... Okay, it's here. How did time pass so fast? Like half the year is gone already - one-quarter of my JC life in HC! And just within 5 months or so my life has changed. For the better? In some ways, but it'll never be in ALL ways. Because some things just can't change and become better all at once; those things will always be the best I've ever had at some point in my life.

And all I can expect for the next few weeks is WORK. I'm totally willing to put myself under "house arrest" (unless absolutely necessary) just so I can be productive! As for a certain something that's taking over my life now, damn I'll just have to push on, don't I?

A tower of cards can take hours to build. But it can fall in a matter of seconds. Maybe we're all just trying too hard.

Closure.

Sun, 24 May 2009 10:34:20 GMT

Dance Night 2009. One of the best days of my LIFE, I can safely say. I enjoy every single time I'm dancing on stage, but maybe this time it's more memorable because it's one of my last. The last time I'd feel the adrenaline rushing through my every vein just before we enter the stage; the last time I'd be dancing with HCCD dancers whom I've grown to love over these 4 months or so; the last time I'd feel the amazing rush of satisfaction after a performance... Cause now "after" really means the end. Okay I'm beginning to feel all pensive and nostalgic all over again.

Maybe you don't realise how much it means to say that those doors will always stay open to welcome me back again. But it does (: And though I'm definitely not the best out there, I've enjoyed every single performance, practice and rehearsal that I've been through in the past 10 years. Cause I'd do it all over again if I had a choice. No regrets, because I know this decision will be worth it in the end. Just heart-wrenching when I come to think about letting it go.

I'm a dancer, and I'm proud of it.

Beautiful!

I'll miss you guys (:

Big thank you to all the lovely people who came down for HC Dance Night! And brought with them flowers, hugs, cameras, praise and everything nice. I loved Saturday night's show (: Haha and Zelei thought I spotted her in the audience when I smiled during the SYF dance after the "war" part! Actually it was so dark that I couldn't spot anybody sitting there (which is a good thing), but do keep thinking that way if it makes you feel SPECIAL! :D I'm going to dry all my roses and keep them for YEARS to come.

And it's not just all closure. 36th Investiture 2009! The event that we've been rehearsing for may be over, but there are a lot more to come in the coming year, so brace yourselves for a CRAZY time!

Arrived Changi with Hern Hern for Council camp after midnight! Just in time to sleep, and for area cleaning the next morning. Haha so I satisfied myself with spamming photos with the councillors! I love (successful) jumpshots :D

I love Welfare Duty (:

Fri, 15 May 2009 15:05:16 GMT

I really appreciated the two short hours today in the Welfare room! Amidst all the recording, counting, choco pies and blazers, I managed to survive with Vivien and Lei - I swear they are funniest beings on earth! Burnt a lot of calories laughing at random jokes, and most of the time I was just laughing without knowing why, just because one of them would start laughing hysterically first. For example...

Lei: How many Hello Pandas are there?
Viv: Thirty-six! All the pandas (:

Like how on earth is this funny right! But I kind of just went crazy momentarily and laughed as though it was something freaking hilarious! Thank you guys for giving me such a fun time (: my first Welfare duty in council will be remembered long after my term ends! I know it may be something really trivial, but I tend to remember things like that a lot. Guess all those complicated swaps were worth it in the end! Plus Emily came to visit at the end of it all omg. Great timing.

Okay, Invest is in 6 days, I just hope we can pull this whole thing together and really impress. The rehearsals are making me miss SCPB Investitures like crazy. It's just really different here, and that's inevitable! I still remember the "high-brow" musicals that we did, the Pledge that we took, the audi stage that we loved, the practices that we slogged at, the tears that we cried, the fun that we had - and those are the things I'll never be able to forget or compare to anything.

Guess these are what REAL traditions mean. Traditions that don't need a conscious effort to be remembered and carried on; traditions that are continued out of love for them. But then again, I know 36th is going to be a whole new experience - something I'll treasure at the end of it all, and something that cannot be compared to anything else either. So bring it on 36th, let's give our all.

Pet Society VS Reality

Mon, 11 May 2009 04:49:47 GMT

My sister is on Facebook's Pet Society now at the comp right next to me, so it's SUPER DISTRACTING omg. I'm just wishing that I could somehow enter Pet Society and just laze around, visit friends' houses, change my clothes, play games, etc etc. Instead of having to worry about my History Essay, Econs test tmr, GP test on Wednesday, Math tutorials, PW GPP and council stuff! Holidays are totally not what they mean.

I know someday, maybe in the near J2 future, I'll look back on this and think, "I'd much rather do essays/tutorials, mug for tests, and edit proposals than [whatever's taking over my life at that point in time]!" But for now I'm probably just feeling too lazy and tired. Do you really think that I'm unaware of the things I'm giving up and what I should have to consider?

Well. Okay back to work Sandra.

PS, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA TOH! (:

God could not be everywhere and therefore he made mothers.

Sun, 10 May 2009 05:43:29 GMT

I'm on a tissue spree once again, and craving for lozenges every time after the effect wears off. I need to sleep so badly, but I can't ): History essay, Exco meeting soon, Math/Econs test coming up, not to mention Dance Night and Investiture omg. Who feels like giving me some me-time? And why is it so hot today, I want it to rain again.

I feel the whiney me coming. Sigh, some long weekend this is.

On a separate non-whiney note, Happy Mothers' Day! I love you Mummy (:

Summer is over.

Wed, 06 May 2009 12:27:47 GMT

Council is totally taking over my life now! Elections and allocations are nearly over, and 36th is just getting into the flow of a hectic life. (OMG I just checked ISP and guess what I got for Term 3 sabbaticals?! ARCHERY OMG FOURTH CHOICE, THAT'S GREAT. Why did I even put it there? Didn't think I'd actually get it wth. Now I've to spend a day trying to shoot arrows at red circles.) Anyway CONGRATS to Yen Jin, Wei Qing, Vivien, Preston, Po Cheng, Tian Ci and Ben on your working comm chair posts! The competition was quite good yesterday (: Standing comm posts will be out tonight! It's like Deja Vu, I totally remember the day in SCPB when we allocated the Prefects' Committees, and I just looked at the list of Welfare members, not exactly knowing what to think or expect! Haha it turned out to be like the best committee in the end anyway, so I just hope I'll be able to make great CHANGE happen. This is what I love doing.

Haha and yesterday morning after we introduced the Exco on the bridge during morning announcements, a lot of people came up to the GS-es saying, "Omg Hern and Sandra, you two damn cute!" Turns out after we stepped forward to bow, we made the exact same gestures of sweeping our fringe back to the side after we stepped back into line. Haha, I don't know if it makes sense typed out here, but every time I picture how funny we must have looked, I'd just laugh randomly to myself (:

I am seriously deprived of sleep, I look like a panda now. Which reminds me of the Joke of the Day! This morning when I woke up, the first message I saw was something about CCA pracs. Then my mum told me to message Sub that we'll be slightly late, cause we send her to school every day. So I just sleepily typed a message and sent it to her, "Hey sub, sorry the j1s for chinese dance is quite little." HAHAHA?! Totally no link omg! Can you imagine what my notes look like when I fall asleep during Math/History/Econs. Not that I (always) do.

Bad days exist so that we can treasure the good ones.

Happy Seventeenth Rachel! :D

Fri, 01 May 2009 12:00:41 GMT

(3 hours in advance!)

I love you birthday girl (: Though today's lunch burnt a humongous hole in my pocket which I will have to mend by bringing pasta to school over the next few weeks! Keep being that super glam and pretty girl that you are and good luck between Y and J! I'm going to miss you loads, please come for choir with me more often okay! Today was great fun :D Haha Aries I think we make great lie-detectors! Psychology sounds like an even more possible prospect now (:

Made Jellyhearts at my house with Gemma, Yunyi and Aries! Had truckloads of fun (: I'm still waiting for it to settle in the fridge so that I can add on the berries and Jello! Then I'll deliver them tomorrow :D Another trip to Pine Grove again! My secret mission is to be there so often that Snuffles doesn't even bother barking whenever I'm around. She's such a CUTE ball of white fur! Which smells nice and doesn't bite (: Haha I love animals! Started off my day on a bright note this morning <3 Omg, the scandals that we talk about are so exciting especially now cause I actually know the people involved! Love is seriously in the air. I feel like I'm going to get diabetes from breathing it all in! Haha I'm perfectly happy with my lovely SIMPLE life.

Yay the cheese layer has settled sufficiently. Time for me to add the Jello! Keep the strawberries.